most people in the art scene i've met will at least once in their lifetime as an artist say something to the effect of... "good art comes from the heart..."
well... my dad name is Minhat. its either the heart is mean, or the heart is mean as in average. in both cases, the heart does not care one bit.
some guys i've met at work struggled to prove how smart they are... and sometimes they will say things like "you are not as smart as you think you are..." to each other. which is funny.
i think trying to prove you are smarter than another is actually quite weak and desperate.
people will usually start with superficial things to justify their existence, to differentiate themselves, like for instance, wealth in general, driving a big car, having a trophy wife... good looks, muscles... when all that aren't available people will fall unto intellectual capacity... "well at least i'm smart..." and when even that isn't available... people will fall back to religion. which is the last line of defence.
"at least aku semayang, ingat tuhan..." yeah. whatever.
whatever it is, if you are working extra hard to justify yourself, to continuously differentiate yourself... you are no different. you are not unique... you are the same... and you are easily defined and predictable.
don't fight it, it's inevitable.